Finally, I’ve got it.
I’ve grasped what God really wants and expects from me. All this time, He’s been gently screaming these words at me, and I have been ignoring Him.
Hey! I’ve been busy…. honestly….. busy doing all but this. What have I been busy doing?
I’ve been busy trying to build a name for myself.
I’ve been busy trying to build a career for myself.
I’ve been busy neglecting people and things that should be most important.
I’ve been busy ignoring God (ugh, that’s hard to say, but it’s true).
I’ve been doing everything but, making room for what really matters the most. That would
probably (not probably, it does) explain my discontentment. I have truly been focused on the wrong things. I can’t help but to think to myself, How many times will I continue to go around this mountain before I finally get it?
You’ve been traveling around this mountain long enough. Head north. ~Deuteronomy 2:3, CEB
Well, I get it. I sooooooo get it! I have been there way too many times; always ending up at the same place. It’s torment, I tell you. It has robbed me of God’s precious peace. Not anymore, though. I’m taking my peace back. It’s mine. I don’t deserve it. Yet, God made me worthy of it. He sent His one and only Son to die on the cross so that I could have peace. Jesus, Himself, promised me this peace.
Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful. ~John 14:27, NASB
So here’s what I’ve finally gotten. It’s the one thing that I must honestly say I have not truly done. Yet, I know that God has been asking me to do it.
Do you remember the time that I blogged about relinquishing my throne? Well, it turns out that I didn’t. I had every intention to. Honestly. The truth of the matter is that I don’t want to be there. It’s not my place. I know that. Moving out of the way has been hard. I have triiiieeeeeeed (though maybe not hard enough)! Stepping down. Stepping up. Stepping back down. Stepping back up. I just have not learned how to be in my rightful place. I have not learned how to get out of God’s way. Thankfully, that stops today. Because………
I’m done with getting in God’s way. It’s clear that I do not know what’s best for my life, family, career, or ministry more than He does. He knows all things.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. ~Isaiah 55:8, NASB
What I am glad for is that when I make a mess of things, because I’m human, God is merciful and compassionate enough to clean up the mess that I make. He causes all things, even when I’ve made the mess, to work out for my good. In knowing and accepting this divine truth……..
I surrender my life.
I surrender my marriage.
I surrender my family.
I surrender my career.
I surrender my health.
I …………..surrender…………….. all.
It’s in surrender that I learn to make room in life for what matters most. It’s in surrender that I keep the peace Jesus Christ gave me. It’s in surrender that every area of my life will finally resemble the One who gave me life in the first place. It’s in surrender that God will truly get what belongs to Him. Glory.
I get it. I finally get it.
“Making room for what matters the most comes when I surrender.”